Wow! I missed blogdrive! I've been on hiatus here for like, almost a year or so already!

Just to inform this blog, I've successfully hurdled the CPA Board Exams na. Just sharing!

It made me laugh when I scanned my past entries about studies, UST, deciding on where to Review, yaddah, yaddah, yaddah. It seems to me as a distant past (what the f**). Hohoho. Manners now, you're supposed to act like a professional already!Aw, and somehow, now I'm missing school (UST and CPAR). Wala lang, I can't be that lenient about things anymore. It's my life that's at stake na. Sort of.

Oh well, gotta go!

Ah...1pm this afternoon, we (almost 1/4 of 4a6 class) went to CPAR building and put reserved our slots for the CPA Review...ah...I so damn wished that I'd graduate on time so that I can review without delays...haha!

The deciding process wasn't an easy one. I was somehow interested in entering IPRSD because I want to meet Ma'am Robles...and it'll be easy for us Thomasians to enter because it is owned by a UST professor. I was also somehow (10% at least) interested in joining RESA because of the good things I've heard about it(specifically from our professor who's teaching there). We've been hearing not-so-good things about CPAR and I felt that it'll be unwise to base my decisision on those, it will be downright unfair because I haven't heard their side (or someone defend them). Before going to CPAR, I was having second thoughts...good thing Aleli said the right thing...

"Wala naman siguro sa Review Center na papasukan mo  yon...kung talagang mag-aaral ka, papasa ka..."

And that was truly sensible.

And what's putting more pressure on my shoulders is the fact that Papa Cologne's my classmate in Review. Haha. I'll be sitting a couple of chairs away from him. I wish I could deliver so well.

But still, the fact hasn't kicked in yet because I still can't get over the fact that I MIGHT FLUNK in AdVac and AudProblems. Nyay!

 

MAY GOD HELP ME!

Ah...seemed like eternity since my last post.

My inactivity's not because I failed to get in touch with my dear pc, but because I've been freakin' lazy these past few days and I've been busy thinking about what will happen in my Accountancy life and my new website.

My Accountancy life...haha...what a nightmare. It's cool because I got good grades in Auditing Theory, MS (hopefully I got an acceptable grade in the 2nd quiz), Law, Tax, except in AIS and Advanced Acctg.

My AIS? Roar. I don't even want to talk about it. It's annoying because our prof's acting as if her subject was a major one. Hello? We've got 12 units accounting subject and it'll be impractica l for us to "master" her subject. And I wasn't able to finish my Computer Laboratory prelims.

Advanced? That was the killer. I only got 58 as prelim grade, and 65 is the passing grade (GOOD LUCK!). And now, I don't know how I am supposed to pass that subject. Bummer.

And everyone's having a dilemma on where to review for the Board Exam. It's a close competition between IPRSD and CPAR. May we choose the best one.

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

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Ahh...erm...at last my 3-quizzes-in-a-day tragedy was over.And I am so darn dead  

Therefore, my discovery of that obituary was oh-so timely. I'm totally tormented, torn into unsalvageable pieces.

The quiz in Advanced Accounting was a notorious murderer. And I'm actually contemplating the chances of me being dead in this subject this coming October.

Unluckily for me, I failed to pass the first quiz (lacked 2.5 points to pass!) and I believe that I'll flunk this one too. Haha. 40 tormenting accounting problems to be solved in 2 hours, inside a freezing room, with an annoying professor (hindi si Sir G yan ha) was more than hell for me. 1 hour had passed and I'm still answering question number 15...and 25 more to go. When I first looked at the testpaper, I was like, "WTF!  How am I gonna answer these freakin' problems?".

The first quiz was HARD, and this one's HARDER. I wonder how HARDER the next one will be. 

And I think the most suitable thing to put in my obituary will be...

"Trying to squeeze some more brain juices from her head...which, in fact, is already drained, Ethereal Oracle died a tormenting, depressing and test-flunking death.

Ethereal Oracle will be terribly missed by her calculator, her pc and her study table."

P.S. I didn't really know Kid Rock and I are really close. Haha!

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On my quest in finding the best emoticons in cyberspace, I came across some that I found very...INTERESTING...

 Haha...so devilish...and he's got the "FORK"...erm.

 Ah, anime lips.

 Devilish too...and look how the horns protruded from her head...hehe

 The green effect does it all...is she gonna puke or something?

 Best eyebrows!

 Flood the world...and beat the UST sea!

 Look at the sparkles! Haha! Really cute. He's celebrating!

 Self-explanatory. EXCLAMATION!

 At first I had a hard time figuring out what this one's doing...you may guess...

 WHAT THE F***! Haha...he's totally furious! This is one of my faves!

Credits to Charlive and Sugary Star for these.

P.S. I'm not bashing. I'm just commenting.

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Ah…now, more than ever, is the time when I badly wished to have my own domain.

 

I think it'll be cool if I'd had a "real" website…ye know…it will enhance my web designing skills (if there's any) and I'll be proud to say that in my teen years I got to construct my own site.

 

Yeah…and the desperation continues and worsens. Lately, I've created blog pages in my blogdrive account and I'm actually planning to make this blog a real "click to go to the other pages" and not just a "click to nav – imagemap – get element by id" thing. Nyahaha. I hope I am saying the right terms and referring to the right things.

 

And I'm actually planning to move (AGAIN?  ) to a free web host. I'm currently signing up, browsing famous free web hosts (tripod, freewebs, etc.) and checking their features. When I've found a free web host that really caters to my needs and caprices, for sure, I'll move!

 

This is also a preparation for the project in our computer class. CREATE A WEBSITE. I think I should do it this early so that I won't cram.

 

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I want to go to the movies! I want to watch PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN, NACHO LIBRE, CLICK and THE BREAK UP. Too bad I haven't got the time and the money. Anyway, Video City's always to the rescue!

 

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I did horrible in the AIS quiz too. Bummer. I didn't study (nor bothered to read the book) because I was so pre-occupied with reviewing for AdVac and internet surfing. Haha. The quiz includes a fill-in-the-box flowchart and I didn't know a single thing. Crap.

Whoa. I'm freakin' happy today!

Finally, after a grueling  week of trying and trying, I finally made the dissolving image rollover effect work! Thanks a bunch to Microsoft Frontpage for being of BIG HELP.

Yehey! Yehey! Yehey!

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A few days ago, I bumped into this blog that's got amazing emoticons on her cbox. I asked myself,  "How did she do that? Is she using the paid cbox that's why she's got custom smilies or she's still using the free one?" Ecstatic to fulfill another mission, I opened my Cbox Admin page. I looked at the smilies section and discovered that everyone can actually customize the smilies (whether you are using the paid or free cbox). Since I don't know how to do pixelated stuffs yet, I searched for websites that lets visitors use their self-made emoticons/smilies for free (of course, you have to give them the credit that's due for them).

I have successfully found different websites, thankfully. But the thing is, I actually had a LOT OF TROUBLE dealing with their "kawainess & cuteness" stuffs, etcetera. I'm not really into these things and the color PINK makes me puke.  (I didn't mean to offend anyone who LURVES PINK but this is my honest opinion) I was like, "What in the world am I doing? I can't believe I'm actually browsing these websites!" But I'll say that these ladies are good and talented. They've already constructed a site at an early age and are even more knowledgeable about web stuffs than yours truly, a 19-year old blogger(I even saw a website wherein the webmistress is only 13 years old!).

And, oh, 70% of the emoticons that I've found were colored pink. Bummer. Good thing I found some which are not pink and not too GIRLY. Yes, finally, something will fit into my blog and will

reflect my true personality.

I already uploaded the smilies to my cbox! Check 'em out!

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After noticing the emoticons, I noticed the vibe icons that those websites have. They're really cool and I also thought of putting stuffs like that in my blog. Yeah, yeah, I searched for vibe icons again from the different websites. Good thing I found some and they're cool.Maybe next time I'll upload it.

And due to my addictive searching through these kinds of websites, I am actually inspired to make my own. I mean, not as girly and as cute like those because I'm not really into those and I hope to cater to the taste of girls like me...yeh know. Having tutorials and free stuffs like that for others to download is a good thing...I mean, you get to help others enhance their web designing skills, but there are a lot of barriers. I'm not yet an EXPERT with these stuffs and I don't have a host. Haha. Maybe next time I'll have the money to pay for it. Or maybe I can use the free ripway and angelfire hosts.

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I'm so pleased with known half-Filipino foreign personalities who are proud of being "half-pinoy". Take Nicole of Pussy Cat Dolls for example. She is actually proud that she's half pinay and she was so thrilled to be here in the Philippines. She even knows APL's (of Black Eyed Peas) song "Bebot". Haha. And she's a big fan of Lea Salonga because she listened to her songs when she was young. still young.

Of course, who would forget APL of Black Eyed Peas?! He even sung Tagalog songs in the album! He rocks, man!

Rob Schneider's also a good example. When MTV Cribs "raided" his house, he's got Filipino stuffs inside his crib like the "salakot" that his father used to wear years before. He's also not hesitated to say he's half-Pinoy and is actually outspoken about it.

Billy Crawford, yes. He's a true Filipino inside and out. After all his success, he's still the "Billy Joe Crawford" that we loved in his That's Entertainment days.

And the latest one is Batista. I've already known months ago that he's also got Filipino blood but I never really heard his claim (or I haven't seen any article wherein he actually claimed).And I was somehow bitten by the idea that he's not really proud to have it.

When he came back from his triceps injury last week in Smackdown, I noticed that he's got a new tattoo in his left arm (I dunno if it's left or right), located above the Chinese characters "HEAVEN SENT" tattoo. I didn't really recognize what it is but it's got color blue and red. Then yesterday, while I was watching "WRESTBACK" at JackTV, they said that Batista's got a tattoo that mixed Greece's and Philippines' flags. Ah finally, an implied recognition from him that he's proud to have Filipino blood!( BTW, he's also got greek blood...hehe...is there such thing as "Greek blood" or am I just using the wrong term? Whatever!  )

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Ah...prelims week are slowly approaching. I've got 3 exams on Tuesday and I haven't started reading yet. Silly me. Blame it on my internet-surfing addiction. Blech. I need to take these things seriously. Probably, it'll take days or weeks before I can post another entry. Wish me luck.

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Got a lot of things to say but I already forgot everything. Ciao!

The "stalker" in me is alive and kicking again.

Why?

A lot of people...certain persons...get into somewhat DEEP SH*T because of what they put in their blogs. I have been a victim too and had to learn THE HARD WAY...

WTF? What am I talking about?

I was online yesterday when I had this somewhat-stupid idea of typing "Papa Cologne's" name in the Google Search Engine to find any website (or blogs) that mentioned his name (or maybe, to see if my blog will be on the list...tsk tsk tsk...safety parameters...). Fortunately, for yours truly, I didn't find my blog's name on the list. There wasn't any list, actually. Just one entry...and it is a BLOG!

And the excerpt says:

..."I'm talking about [Papa Cologne]. I know him, but he doesn't know me, Get that? Then,"...

Being the privacy killer that I am (though I don't really like it when it's my privacy that others are trespassing...ehehe), I opened HER blog. Ahh...another one of my *karibals*, a sophie accountancy student in our University. Yeah yeah of course I've read every single thing in her blog (thanks to Blogspot's great archiving skills...that made Blogdrive run for their money...nyahaha...still loyal to Blogdrive, btw) and her entries kinda freaked me out. She's got this poem and theme-song for "My Cologne" (MY COLOGNE? Since when did I acquire possession of that priceless hunk?), she's got this "what's-happening-to-me-and-why-am-i-always-thinking-of-him?" illness, she feels "electric shocks" whenever some part of her body touches his (of course, when they see each other in the corridor or something, you pesty!), and currently, has joined the UST-AMV SC Staffers' Circle. (Good thing she didn't join "OUR" Committee! Haha...nasty me!)Anyhoo, she's one of those "girls" that I have to compete with for Cologne's affection! (Joke!)

Well, it kinda alarmed me or something...that it's possible that I'm not the only psycho lady who'll fall for this gorgeous lad. Yeah, I know I should've been prepared already, considering the fact that he's really a "crush-ng-bayan" material and that I've known a pretty good number of girls drooling over him even before I developed this infatuation, (mahirap talagang magkagusto sa GWAPO!) but I can't help myself. And now, I think I'm stalking her. Bad for her, she put her important stuffs in her blog...such as her email ad (I don't have plans of sending her death threats, for crying out loud!) and that's why I easily found her on friendster, her links to her other blogs (of course I read her other entries to find if ever she wrote anything else about him), links to her pictures, etcetera, etcetera.

And this is freakin' alarming because I don't know if I'm already "JEALOUS" or anything! Bad, bad, bad! (This can't be LOVE yet!) XOXO! Blech.

I've already memorized her face and I will know that it's "HER" if I see her around the campus.

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After 2 days of relaxation and heavy rains, classes will resume tomorrow already.

Good thing: Even if I procrastinated a lot and stayed online for hours, I still managed to do my homeworks which are due tomorrow. Haha.

Not a really good example of time management. XOXO.

I can't wait to see him again tomorrow! Ow, I remembered, the Executive Board will now be strict in implementing the 3-hour duty requirement. I have to comply with it. It won't be hard for me, anyway! I enjoy hanging out in the SC Office (of course, I enjoy the delights of seeing him every minute of the day! haha!)

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I was, actually, only FORCED (not physically, though) to join the Scarl*t Organization. I didn't really intend to join that org because the president of the org wasn't really nice to me since she met me (or since I met her) and it'll kill me to always deal with her for the rest of the schoolyear. I was supposed to join ComA*h, but I didn't pursue it because Scarl*t already got hold of my 100-peso membership fee.

Why I was forced?

I was walking in the corridor (on my way to the classroom) when Mariz (a former classmate of mine; she's an officer of the said org and she's my boss at the committee that I've joined. She's nice, btw, very much unlike the head of the org!) called me and said, "Uy, halika muna rito...sali ka sa Scarl*t..."

Dumbfounded, I approached the table and they convinced me to join. I didn't really plan to soften myself up with their words but I was, somehow, delighted by this event. My former crush Robby (who's also an officer of the said org) all of a sudden talked to me and said, "Ate Soc, sumali ka na". And my delighted subconcious brought me into joining the said org. Bummer.

It's been said and done. There's nothing I could do to reverse that, eh?

I also decided to join Mariz's committee, the Scarl*t Letter. It is the committee that is responsible for the publication of the newsletter. At first, I didn't really believe that it is for real. I told her that I'm interested in joining the Photography stuff and she took it so seriously. She gave me this form...and it took me hours to realize that this was no joke, I'm actually giving myself another responsibility aside from being a demented accountancy student and Cologne's devoted SSGC staffeer. I decided not to pass the form anymore...expecting that she'll soon forget it. But she's got good memory, and everytime we bump into each other she always reminded me to pass the form. Ah, after almost 1-and-a-half month of hiding, I decided to pass the form last Saturday.

And when I passed the form, I got another "the-shock-of-my-life" news...

Me: Hi...senxa na ha, ngayon lang ako nag-pass. Palagi ko kasi 'tong naiiwan (Oh...for real?)
Her: Ah, ok lang. Siya nga pala, ang kasama mong photographer ay si Jessie...
Me: (already knows who's jessie but pretended not to know him, contemplating that there might be a possibility that he's not the certain "jessie" that's on her mind) What? Sino yon?
Her: Yung taga-section 7...
Me: Ah (exasperated) OK...

No way! I'm gonna work with this "I-feel-good-about-myself-slash-I'm-so-great-slash-I'm-always-right" guy in the org for the rest of the schoolyear! That certain "Jessie" has a not-so-good image preceeding him, and I'm so aware of it. I am fully informed of the troubles he put the original A6 in and I'm fully aware of his "boastful-ness"...and a living testimony of that fact is his good friendly ties with the equally-boastful, aka "seatmate-from-hell", former classmate of mine named "K"...GOOD LUCK sa akin. Tons of nuisances are on its way!

And speaking of her, I was recently bombarded with her undisputed boastful force last week. We accidentally saw each other inside the Wash Room. I tried to hide from her but as said, "you can run but you cannot hide"...

She: Hi
Me: Ah...hi
She: Ah, sa palagay mo, OK lang ba yung NINETY-ONE POINT FIVE na score sa first quiz sa Cost?
Me: Ah...OK na siguro...

Ow crap. I was sooo temted to give her the finger say viciously, "Amf, ang yabang mo ha? First quiz pa lang yan noh, wag kang magmaganda..." Manners, Oracle, MANNERS!!!

I'd hate to see her again.

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Ah...I miss watching "Late Night with Conan O' Brien" already! Gotta go and watch it! Been longing for his "funny sketches" for weeks!

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Because of this entry...I will go straight to hell, my friends.

 

Ah...revamped this page.

I've been working on this Image Rollover Effect since Saturday and I wasn't successful! I've successfully done it on my blogspot account & my other blogdrive account but not on this one. Roar! Because of my desperation, my newly-purchased 100-peso worth internet card's already 3/4 used! Argh! What a waste of bucks! I tried it with the default layout and it worked, but not with this one. Maybe it really won't work with a "click-to-navigate" layout. Crap. Better luck next time.

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World Wrestling Entertainment had this so-called "WWE Fast Track" last Saturday and Sunday. Since Jack TV's 2 weeks delayed with the WWE episodes, they had a 3-episode marathon for both Raw and Smackdown, maybe to keep up with WWE episodes in the U.S. Too bad I haven't watched the Raw Marathon last Saturday because of the SSGC meeting...but luckily, I was here (in the house) all Sunday to devour the Smackdown episodes!

At last...BATISTA'S BACK! Missed his Batista Bomb for 6 months! And I say he's better now, his built's been bigger and he's much handsome than ever! (Hala?Kumusta naman yun?) Call me a freak, but I have this BIG CRUSH on him! Nyahaha...he'll qualify as my dad already! But joking aside, he's really handsome naman talaga...even if he's already in his 40's, mababakas pa rin sa mukha niya yung kagwapuhan niya nung bata pa siya. And he's got nice facial features: his lips are really thin (and it drives us -- Jo and I -- nuts whenever he licks them! Nyahaha!), he's got beautiful, aquiline nose, unique goatee (I'm not sure if we can really call that a "goatee"), killer smile, and a great, sexy body to match his good looks! *kilig* Ah, this is too much. You people might think I'm sexually attracted to him! Haha!

Anyway, it's nice to see him back in the ring to crush Mark Henry's bones. Retribution is on the way. And I'm looking forward to see him regain the WWE World Heavyweight Title! I'm with you, Batista!

P.S. DX's (D Generation X) beating the hell out of the MacMahons. It's fun watching them! Too bad I haven't watched the episode where Triple H and Shawn Michaels imitated Vince & Shane! They really made fools out of the father & son!

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A funny act.

Last Saturday, Jo and I are on our way to buy Waffles at Waffle Time (inside UST's Carpark) when we saw my ex-love interest JB. He was buying food from one of the stalls there. And what's peculiar is that he's wearing green long-sleeved polo and white slacks, not their uniform. Jo and I had this crazy idea. We ran after him (but he's not aware that we're following him) so that we'll get an idea why he's wearing such.

We ran from Waffle Time up to UST Health Center. Unluckily, someone on the catwalk (catwalk nga ba yung tawag dun sa covered walk sa gilid ng Tinoco Park?) talked to him for a moment. We are still running and then, BAM! He saw us. We didn't know what to do -- whether to continue running towards Commerce Building or run away from him, etcetera. I said, "tuloy nalang natin yung paglalakad para hindi masyadong halata". Then he talked to us...

Him: Oi (waves at us)
Me: Oi! Anong meron sa inyo? Bakit ka naka-ganyan?
Him: Ah...G.A. namin eh. Kayo? Kelan ang G.A. niyo?
Me: Sa July 29 pa...
Him: (notices that we're panting) hinihingal ata kayo?
Jo: Ah, wala...hinahabol lang namin si Sir ******!
Me: Crush niya kasi eh...

at doon na nalipat ang usapan. Buti pala nai-open ko yon. Kaya naman si Jo, hiningi na yung bday, cellphone at landline number ni Sir ****** mula kay JB (prof niya dati si Sir ******). Ayan, di na masyadong halata!

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I had this guy schoolmate (at my former school) whom I got a crush on when I was still in my freshman year in highschool. He was grade 6 then, still very young, and he has become the "crush ng bayan" because he danced very well. I've only got a crush on him for a week, and then, my petty infatuation's over.

Lately, I've been seeing him very often...especially on my way home or to school. There are times when we'll sit next to each other inside the fx taxi. We don't talk but we probably know each other by face. And then, lately, I've noticed that he's been giving me queer glances whenever we see each other. I didn't really pay attention to it (and had no idea why...) until NOW.

I was checking my friendster account when I suddenly thought of viewing my friends list. I carefully looked at their pics and opened the profiles of those who have changed their pics. Then there's a picture that captured my attention -- a picture of my former girl schoolmate (a beautiful one) whom I added on my friends list a couple of months ago (a few months ago I searched Friendster to find my former GAS schoolmates and then added those people who looked familiar to me...and she's one of those). And I was like, "hey, she already accepted my invite, but I haven't bothered to check her profile yet..." so I pressed the mouse button and viewed her profile. It showed up (of course! What else do I expect it to do?) and I was shocked to see that her surname on friendster is the surname of the guy whom I was talking about earlier. I was like, "sila ba?". I looked at her status but she's still single...so she's not taken, obviously...but hey, the GENDER says MALE. And then when I looked at the other pics, it was HIM! It was the guy's account and he only used her pic (maybe she's his secret girlfriend or ka-"M.U.) for some other purpose. It was him all along! Darn, now I know why he's kind of icky when I'm around! Haha!

 

Ahhh...this is LIFE!

I haven't got classes tomorrow! I don't know if it's University-Wide or College-wide (is there such term?) or only Senior BS Accountancy students are priveleged. Well, it's days like these when I am thankful to be in UST. (Connection?) Faculty meeting from 8 am to 5 pm. *applauds*

Hmmmm. Last Monday, I was really in a hurry to go to school. 12 noon and I still haven't arrived at school (I was supposed to be on duty -- SSGC staffer stuff -- but I was FREAKIN' LATE! Jo's reprimanded me because we're supposed to meet at around 11 am.). I was about to enter UST Dapitan Gate when a petty commotion got my attention...the girls that were about to come out are looking at something (on the floor...Oh I wish I was using the ats, ons & ins correctly!). Seeing that it was trivial, I went on with my business. I raised my head and GUESS WHO I SAW!!!

It's him! My ex-love interest JBES!

It was a shock, really. But I dunno...I didn't really feel anything stupid inside. When our eyes met, I realized that he has already seen me a couple of seconds before I've seen him and that he's actually waiting for me to see him. What did I do? I gave him a sheepish smile, he gave a nice one and waved at me...and then, the encounter was off. Actually, after I smiled, my face immediately went blank (I lost my facial emotions/expressions...probably because I was still surprised!) and then I removed my gaze. Then, he was still looking at me, probably waiting if I'll say a thing or two. Well, I didn't (and I don't know why!). Then we walked again (our elbows bumped...just letting you know!) And that was it!

Hmmm. I don't really know what to feel and what really happened to me. Before, I blush whenever I see him, I can't control the width of my smile whenever we meet (width?), I feel that my heartbeats are getting faster and faster, and then, there are sparks flying everywhere. But during that encounter, everything was gone. No fireworks, no big smile, no fast heartbeat. Just that simple smile and then it was off. I also noticed that the other people around us STILL EXISTED during the encounter (before, the people disappear and it feels like the two of us are left alone in the world!). BAM! And then reality hit me: I'M NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM ANYMORE!

Somehow, minutes after that, I felt stupid for just smiling...as if "SINUPLADAHAN ko siya". Then I realized that I might drove him FARTHER away from me because I wasn't really nice during the encounter, and a day might come when my feelings for him will come back and he won't be nice to me anymore. (I was sort of short with words...ah...*nosebleed*) Then the doubt whether I have really MOVED ON or NOT resurfaced.

Wednesday...a day that changed my life. We were in our computer laboratory class...

Dianne: Oi, nakita ko si B.A. mo ha...(referring to JB)
Me: Ah, talaga?
Cyndi: Ay, alam mo ba, nung Monday, nakita ko si JB...may kasamang girl...tas magka-HOLDING HANDS sila?
Me: Talaga??? *flabbergasted* Paanong holding hands?
Cyndi: Yung magka-cross ng fingers! Tas nung nakita niya nga ako, parang nagulat siya, tas inalis nila yung pagkakahawak nila ng kamay. Tas nung nagkalapit kami eh hinawakan niya rin yung kamay ko...yung usual niyang ginagawa sa mga girl friends niya...
Me: ah...

Realization: His "In A Relationship" claim in Friendster is indeed TRUE.

He's touchy with his girl friends (not girlfriends...), even with me during our P.E. days, but he wouldn't dare hold a girl's hand that way unless there's something between the two of them. I kinda know him very well.

I decided to move on when I saw in his Friendster account that he's already taken (I think that was end of January, 2006). I didn't actually believe it (there are no traces that he's taken...I mean, no pictures with his girl and no "mushy and romantic" testimonials from her) but I still proceeded on with my "MOVING ON" business. And now I've learned that it's indeed true. Good thing. My doubts, my "left-over feelings" (if there's any), my tendencies of falling for him again, and hopes that "he'd-someday-fall-in-love-with-me" are gone with the wind. (And I hardly wish that they're gone for good!)

What I felt when I heard the news? I'll be a hypocrite if I say that I wasn't affected at all (Uhm, I think I did tell some of my friends that I wasn't affected...so that makes me a hypocrite?). There's a little part of me that was sad, SAD because I finally confirmed that he's taken...and a big part was HAPPY...HAPPY because I've got more that enough reasons to TOTALLY OBLITERATE him from my mind and heart.

And that made me eager to throw his pictures, his video in our Speech Subject, etc. But I'm wiser than that. I did that before (I threw my first ex-boyfriend's loveletters, pictures, etcetera) and I regretted doing that. It'll serve a purpose. Someday, when I'm already old, I can look at those memorabilias again and remind myself of how stupid I've been when I fell in love. *grins*

The past week's been freakin' busy! That's why I haven't got the time to blog!

Ah...what a week!

Let me fill you in with the recent unfortunate events that occurred.

Yesterday, we had our first quiz in B.A. By pair yung quiz...and pwede kaming mamili ng partner...

and the statement "pwedeng mamili ng partner" is not absolute; kung wala yung "dapat" mong partner eh di maki-partner ka nalang sa iba mong classmates na walang partner.

At eto na ang ipinuputok ng buchi ko...

Supposedly, si Ate Cyndi ang partner ko...kaso wala siya, absent. Kaya ako naman, OK lang na kahit sino na ang maging partner ko. Si Dianne naman, una palang eh nakapag-usap na sila ni Lee na sila na ang partners...so akong kawawa eh walang partner.

Tas napansin nung iba kong classmates na wala ring partner tong certain kong girl classmate. Let's just call her "C". Kaya sabi ng mga classmates ko, "Soc, si C, wala pang partner"...then, "C, si Soc, wala pang partner!" Alam mo ba kung anong sagot niya? "Eh hinihintay ko pa si JP eh" yun yung parang ka-loveteam niya sa room. Seeing na parang ayaw niyang makipag-partner sa iba, I didn't push the issue. Naka-upo lang muna ako dun sa pwesto ko at naghihintay ng dadating na taong wala pang partner.

Kaso, nakita ni Sir na wala pa akong partner...tas nakita rin niyang wala pang partner si C. So he told me, "O, kayong dalawa nalang ang mag-partner". And C said repulsively, "SIR, AYOKO!" Hearing that, syempre ayaw ko nang makipag-partner. In the first place, bakit ko ipipilit yung sarili ko sa taong ayaw naman akong ka-partner, di ba? Kaya lang, sinenyasan ako ni Sir...tas yung iba kong classmates eh sinenyasan narin ako. So napilitan nalang ako.

Tas nung tumabi na ako sa kanya eh halos hindi mai-pinta yung mukha ni C.Alam mo yon, nakaka-inis talaga! Oo, alam kong si JP yung gusto niyang partner (as if naman gusto ko rin siyang kapartner, noh!?!). Tas yon...buti nalang, dumating si Tina. Tas as in, siya talaga yung tumawag kay Tina tas sinabi niya sa akin na "O, yan, si Tina nalang ang partner-an mo". So yon, partners na kami ni Tina. Tas napansin ni Sir na 3 kaming magkakatabi. He said, "Ano yan? Tatlo kayo diyan? Hindi pwede yan!" and seeing na parang naghihintay siya ng sagot, I said "Hindi po...hinihintay niya lang po yung partner niya...". Nabadtrip si Sir...he glared at C and said "Ang kulit mo talaga"...

Tas yon. We proceeded with the quiz. Napansin ko pa nga na tinitignan akong mabuti ni Sir. Feeling ko, despite my efforts of hiding my emotions and trying hard not to make it obvious sa facial expressions ko, napansin niyang NA-OFFEND ako sa ginawa ni C.

Then dumating na si JP. Medyo pinagalitan pa siya ni Sir for being late. Tas after non, bumanat si Sir...

"Next time, ayoko ng mapili at MAARTE sa partner ha! It's very, very PETTY!"

My problem with that? Unang-una, sana man lang, kahit na ayaw niya akong ka-partner eh pinaramdam niya sa aking TAO ako at NAG-EEXIST. Alam mo yun, obvious namang si JP yung gusto niyang partner at hindi na magbabago yun, sana kahit pa-plastic lang, um-oo nalang siya nung inutusan siya ni Sir na makipag-partner sa akin, hindi yung parang ipinagtabuyan pa niya ako't sinabi in front of everyone in the class na AYAW niya akong ka-partner! O kaya, sana nung magkatabi na kami, nakiusap nalang siya sa akin na "Ui, Soc, pwede ba, pagka-may dumating na iba nating classmate, siya nalang ang kapartner mo"...blah, blah, blah, blah. Di ba, mas MAKATAO yun! At saka papayag naman ako, if ever sinabi niya yun. Third thing, hindi naman siguro makitid ang utak ni JP na magagalit siya sa kanya kung iba yung pinartneran niya! Maiintindihan naman siguro ni JP yon if ever pagdating niya eh may ibang ka-partner si C.

Hay, nako. Bigla ko tuloy na-miss yung high school days ko. Alam mo yon, hindi naman sa lahat ng tao noon eh gusto ako (You can't please everybody, di ba?) Pero at least non, na-feel kong kahit papaano eh tao ang tingin nila sa akin at naa-apreciate nila ako. Hindi yung ipagtatabuyan ka pa. Basta, that moment, I FELT SO WORTHLESS. Ganon ba ako ka-walang kwenta para tanggihan nilang maging ka-partner sa quiz?

And it somehow gave me the feeling na talagang worthless nga ako kaya yung parents ko eh hindi naa-appreciate yung mga ginagawa ko (puro kamalian ko lang yung nakikita), yung mga tao eh hindi ako pinapansin (ngayong college days eh palagi akong outcast at naa-OUT OF PLACE), at never akong napansin ng mga "guy" na gusto ko...(see my latest Wordpress entry para maka-relate ka!  )

Ahem. Tama na ang grievances.

New Life. New Blog.

I didn't erase my old blog but I'm using a new one. The reason for the sudden move?

Well, it's been months already since I started receiving weird comments in my blog. Why weird? Because these unknown people comment on my confidential, heart-related posts that are almost years old. I wouldn't wonder if the posts are new but damn, how the hell did these people got access of those old, important entries? And they continue to freak me out by posting question marks, etc. as comments. Stalker?

Then what scared me to the bone is "MY" multiply account. I was browsing Cyndi's multiply account when a sudden thought hit me,"Why not make a multiply account?". Eversince, I didn't really want to create a multiply account because the pictures can be viewed by the public and that's pretty scary (people can use your pics for mischievous or illegal acts, ye know!). That day, I thought, I'd just make one, then look at the features, and then if I didn't like the features, I'll delete the account that I've created.

So I proceeded with the registration and typed my official "codename" on the username textbox..."Aby..."...and then when I submitted the form, the sign-up wizard said that the username already exists. So I was like,"What the?! May gumaya sa codename ko?! Mamatay ka na, mamatay ka na!". Outraged, I immediately typed Aby...multiply.com to see who's the shithead that used my username. What I saw freaked the hell out of me. I saw my picture (a long-lost picture of yours truly, taken when I was still in 3rd year high school. That was the first pic that I uploaded on Friendster but after a couple of months, I deleted it already) and the site says "Soc...'s site". Whoa. It's MY Multiply Account, but I didn't register it!

I swear I didn't register for a multiply account before! If ever I'll forget, I will only forget the password or the username that I used but I won't forget if ever I already signed up for it! Darn! Who the hell did that?!?!

And that gave me the strong reason to move.

How I wish that darn shithead won't locate my new blog!!!
Wish me luck.

But how about the blogrings that I've joined? The good ratings that I've gained in PinoyBlogger? The blogmates that I've met?

I now realized that those aren't really important as compared to my privacy. Before, I thought blogging was about being popular in cyberspace and then gaining good ratings in blog rings, etcetera. But now, expressing yourself without worrying about privacy is the main concern. Just like what Aura did, I'm now officially blogging because of "blogging" and not because of any other reason.

"I'm just here to blog..."